its the 3rd time. i really duno whether you find it funny. but i really dun.
u gave my joy , u gave me sadness. but i dun care. i really dun like the things you say to me. i duno whats wrong with you. i cried while walking home. i wanted to eat lunch with you. but you had geog. and whats worse , u even said things to me which i dun like. i really duno what to do. i give up . really. i duno whats wrong. its the 3rd time. i dun want to be alone. i dun want to be lonely. but you changed everything. i really duno what to do. i'm at a loss right now. i hate myself. i hate so many things. i really do. you make me feel so sad. the feeling is very unbearable.
i wish you all the best in studies , love and everything.
i really feel extremely hurt. )):

this few days. really tough for me.
To you know who : i really really felt hurt. very hurt. i trusted you the most. i told you things yet you betrayed it. i was shock. i was hurt. the reason why i told you was because i trusted you. i trusted you alot. so much. but , what did i get back in return ?
i'm so scared. i will be alone in band. with no one to talk to. to tell how i feel in school. to tell you how stress i am in school. i am really scared. of course , things may change. it will be different. i am just so scared , who will i tell all my feelings to. i hope someone will be there. and i hope it will be you with more trust in me. although u hurt me alot. you really do. i could not sleep. i thought and thought. i realised you were the only one i can trust so much. but you make me think , trusting you would never happen again. today , was a really really bad day. i am thinking of not joining SYF. alot of reasons.
i go le. bye

i trust you more then ever after this incident.

sorry for not posting. got soo soo many things to do this few days. MUS ART CONCERT COMING !
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Haising , Crescent , Anglican and Ngee Ann band students got $2 discount ! so must go hor !
this morning i woke up at 8am. so early. i was super duper tired laa. i could not wake up. then wake up go bathe. then went for BRASS BAND practice.
i want to THANK my dear senoir jun for helping me in chemistry and maths.
i am so scared i would go to NA. cuz , my studies ain't that good. its considered lan in haising lorh . then jerm keep on saying SA must get A1 for maths. he thinks its easy. well , i dun think its easy . AT ALL.
jerm blog seriously sounds like a storybook. really. a storybook. haha. no offence though. i deleted my kong and maple. so i cannot play with jun le.
hais. but i hope that can like make myself dun play and control myself.
i gtg to do homework. i left art at school . damn it. THEORY IS DIFFICULT. i wanted to kill myself doing that. wish me good luck on that.
TAKECARE ! .

sorry did not post for the past few days. was kinda stress. with so many homework. haising teachers always ASSUME that we are robots with superbrains that can work 24/7. we sleep so late cuz we got cca and so many homework. and they scold us for being late. LIKE WHAT THE HELL. end school at 2.50pm. where got time to do homework ?
teachers need to push the students. yes. but in a more correct way laa ! damn it.

STUPID SYF. BLEAHS. i hate syf's. but i might not be joining. cuz i got no UNIFORM. weee.

hais. duno whats wrong with me. feel so angry now.
i dun understand why getting silver for syf its so bad. is it shameless ? is it bad ? will it do harm to the band. for me. the answers are all NO ! silver is silver. gold is gold. bronze is bronze. whatever u get just the that medal and try harder.
i duno why when a band last syf get gold. then this syf get silver like its the end of the world. or like. die already.
i think i made the wrong choice of going into haising ? as in like , its so stress in there. so many homework. school end late. teacher its like pushing and pushing and think we are robots. i carn catch up so fast.
when i ask my classmate what is this , they will go : SO EASY ! liddat duno arhs. when they say liddat . makes me feel so. stupid. makes me feel like i am not them. just not them. i duno why some of my classmates are ignoring me. but , ignore then ignore. i really dun care anymore.

i just found out something today. JERMAIN vibrato and sound is better than me and wj. hais. he is PRO de lor. then me and jun was like making him. haha. HE PLAYING THE SOLO FOR SUNRISE AND ZODIAC. wahahas ! then when he play the solo sooooooooooo expressive lor. so nice to hear WORRH !
today nothing much. i got not alot of homework. =))
what i can say is just that , jermain can vibrato better than me and jun. haha . then when jerm practice the habitat. when he play finish. we clapped. LOLS ! so funny. wahahahs ! its revenge time laa jerm.
i heard that sec 2's are suppose to play for speech day. ALONE ! with a LITTLE bit of help from the sec 3's. OH NO ! its practicing and choinging time !!!!
ok. i go le. hope jerm see this post. wahaha !

can WJ and JERMAIN stop saying i pro and u all lan. its so. AHHHHH ! hais.
now WJ is doing his own personal stuff. and now .
today , we made fun of ms. khoo. LOLS ! so funny !
i need go do my art. i cannot stand esther tay the lesson. its very like. nothing to do and so bored. and then SO many homework and she expects us to finish. haiyo. nevermind. I PROMISE myself to DO BETTER. like i can do it. LOLS..

i THOUGHT piccolo not important in band horrrrr. why i must play nehhhhhhs.
FARHAN SAY HE DOWAN PLAY FOR SYF. DUN PLAY LOR. LIKE WE CARE LIDDAT. PEASANTS. SPASTIC OR RETARDED ARH. i think its both....

WEIJUN CAN VIBRATO. and , ITS BETTER THAN ME !! then he quiet quiet dowan play solo lemme play. ARHHH ! wah lau ehs. then hor , WJ wanted to play the flight of the bumble bee. . haiyo. then today zodiac the solo. totally screw it up !!!! ARGHH ! why must i play the SOLO ! cuz i totally screw it up. anyways , so hoping to hear WJ solo on friday with HIS VIBRATO LEHS ! so nice somemore. anyways , hilary's throat is kinda bad ! TAKECARE !!
I WANT TO HEAR WJ PLAY SOLO. AND HE MUST PLAY IT FOR SYF. I DUN CARE !
go le. got NOT MUCH work to do. yay ! trying to make some people envy me with such LITTLE work to do. LOLS. BYE !!

hais. so sians. TODAY !
wake up at 6am. then wash up. my father fetched me to school LOR ! reach school. floor wet go hall. then , the prefects starts walking around. with their TIES. and starts asking where is the name tag and BLAHS BLAHS BLAHS ! then , went back to class. LESSONS RECESS LESSONS ! then went to meet jermain and he taught me ALGEBRA ! but i sucked at it. then weijun came and find us ! haha. then he gave me a question. whats xSQAURE + ySQAURE. then , wj came out with the Seng Law ! lols. so funny. then went to WHITEsands . DID CRAP. walk around like siao people. then went home.

OVERALL GOOD !
go liaos. BYEBYE!!!!!

I SHALL MAKE AN EFFORT THAT I SHALL POST REGULARLY!
today was a SUPER HIGH and HAPPY DAY! i shall start at 7.30am IN THE MORNING!
we were all in the class. then went down to parade square and aces started. THE SEC2's practically STONED there. REALLY STONED. LOL. then went up to the hall for concert. 4e3 performance was a blast! they were great DANCERS! AFTER THE CONCERT, ran up to class and prepared for party. CANDY HELPED ME SPRAYY RED COLOUR HAIR DYE! PARTY STARTED. then zi high. ATE AND ATE like nobody's business. at AROUND...11.30am. CANDY AND ME LEFT FOR SAFRA BOWLING CENTRE. WE REACHED THERE FIRST OKAY! olivia, joycelyn and shenghong on the way. waited damn long so decided to play first! MY BOWLING SKILLS ARE...horrible. THEN! i saw a lot of haising teachers! scare the hell out of me! Ms toh, Ms Thang, Mr Zhao. SO MANY TEACHERS. then scream and cheer for them lor. after bowling, went home and SLEPT. SLEEP AND SLEEP AND SLEEP. then, my mother woke me up cuz need go to Nester Torres Concert. THE CONCERT WAS A BLAST! we all settled down. did our gongyo and daimuku then the concert started. I SAW RACHEL THERE! haha. quite a lot of new friends were there! me and huixian had a sudden urge to go TSC cuz zijie, ben and elaine were there! so we chionged there then heard zijie and elaine singing! thier duet was so nice. VERY SWEET! after the meeting. ASKED ZIJIE AND ELAINE FOR SIGNATURE! took photo's with them. talked to them. ZIJIE WAS SO FUNNY. he called ben with all those funny voices. laughed like hell. ZIJIE is damn tall okay! argh. carn stand him. i asked him to be shorter! after left. ate supper with FAMILY! decided not to go funeral. haha. AND, ben said want go for FLINT tmr cuz he never complete batch3. i bet he wun complete batch 4 either. haha. zijie is FUNNY. and i just realised that. okay, im really really slow.
BYE PEOPLE. need choing the presentation for tmr.
im in love with MY WALLET!

so many things to talk about. errmmmms.

NUMBER 1 : angelic jun AKA clever boy AKA sexy seng weijun CAN VIBRATO LAA ! go act duno. HEH !

NUMBER 2 : jermain , can u stop saying u play flute very lan and u play pic verry lan ! CUZ UR TEETH PAIN THATS WHY CANNOT PLAY ! stop saying u so lan laa. please lor. u can play so well de lor.

school ends late EVERYDAY !!!! band on mon , weds and friday. so so tired.
then school must reach by 7.10am. SO EARLY ! haha. i think i will have to wake up earlier everyday lor.
jerm , if u really teeth pain. maybe should tell my mother ?
BYE GUYS ! actually not alot of things to talk laa. i'm craazy !!!

so sorry for not posting so long. new school , new friends . NEW EVERYTHING. including books. thanks to JERMAIN . for re-making such a WONDERFUL blog for me. hope this thanks is enough. not enough monday i will thank you more de !
nothing much to type. well , i'm still sick ! THANKS TO CLEVERRBOYY !!!!

anyways , tune in to habbosoup. goodness. i'm such an advertiser.

BYE !!!!