STRESS LIKE SHIT RIGHT NOW. got a really bad feeling i will go normal academic. i dun want to bother jerm and jun anymore. they are so busy. JUN-new class , e1 and horribly stress.
jerm- o levels this year , also horribly stress. i just want to be alone sometimes. i shall not bother them again even if i dun know my work. sorry for making jerm call me or go online to teach me. a million apologies ! gambatte for o's ! jiayou.
i shall not bother the both of them anymore. feeling so guilty. can i just die like that ? how i wish i could. SO STRESS ! hais.
take care the both of you

SOKA ROCKED CHINGAY YESTERDAY ! WAS SO SO FUN ! but i miss it so so much. i would like to thank so so many people. MELVIN , TRAY , LIYAN , GINA , my group energisers ! u guys rock man ! made my time in chingay so meaningful. i would remember it the rest of my life. i really want to cry. the sense of achievement. the process of working so hard. and it finally paid off ! thank you Mr.Ikeda for chanting so much daimoku for us everyday. i will continue to chant for you good health. LAST BUT NOT LEASE , MAY AND YONG SHENG ! my dear trainers who never forget to call us for trainings. sms us daily encouragements ! thank you so much. without you all i can never grow so much. i really miss chingay so much that i want to cry.
was really happy to see a group of SSA members standing there cheering for us. i cried. cuz i was really touched. THEY WERE CHEERING : OLE OLE OLE , SENSEI , SENSEI. i really could feel the spirit of soka. i was so touched by what they have did for us. last but not lease , i really hope all chingay participant would remember this process.
SK ALUMNI'S , ROCK ON !

CAN I PONN CHINGAY TMR PUHH-LEASE !!!! my cousin just arrived from malaysia this afternoon. so happy to see them. having dinner with them tmr. i decide to pon chingay even if its the last practice . HAPPY CNY PEOPLE !
i am starting to hate you...

HAPPY CNY PEOPLE ! :D
my mood went down just now. early in the morning when i saw jerm's blog. i mean like i told him stuff that he should not know. so means he should just keep it to himself and stuff like that. and not go and confront that person. or go announce to the public and stuff like that. its so dumb la. nevermind. i shall keep my spirits up !
A VERY HAPPY CNY TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE (its alot!):
my SMALL HEAD ! , CANDAAY ! , GERMS , JUN , HILARY , AMANDA , QIYUN , STACEY , JOANNE , XIN HUI , LIHONG , HUIQIN , HUIZHEN , MAN NING !
all the best for this year !
i go to go bai nian le. take care !

i'm in love with Into The Joy Spring =DDDDDDDD
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ((:

happy chinese new year to my flute section ! ESPECIALLY YOU ! haha.
ok. and everyone too . of course.






if the band dun want to help themselves , i have no idea what to do.

today , there was no band. and my mother said haising band very disorganized and i agree with her alot. i talked to rachel today at haising. i said , the band nowadays very restless. and then when someone up there is talking , the rest keep talking. is this what my mother should get when she work so hard for the band ? and the band gives her shit ?! what the hell is wrong with you guys ? i mean , its the minority that is irratating me. i think , if they band still do not wake up , u guys are gonna fall hard. i'm sure about that. really hard that the band will suffer a great loss. i cried will talking to her cuz i feel the band members are so reluctant to go to band. and they also pon and pon. U THINK MY MOTHER GOT PON BAND AND DUN CONDUCT U ALL ? if u want pon then dun even come to band. why pon and come to band and give dumb and stupid excuses ? dun u think its stupid ? and passing rumours in the band that leaders and not capable and SL sucks all this. what is all this? if u think the leaders are not capable why not in the first place tell the teacher u want to become and leader ? if u continue spreading rumours like this , i wonder how are you going to survive in society next time. i am really pissed off with what attitude u are giving to the leaders and the conductors. i dun care if any band member print this out and show the whole band or teacher. because , i really think the band is not waking up. my mother , work so hard for the band. u think conducting is easy ? U WANT GO AND TRY ?!
i dun think this is what my mother deserves . ur attitude sucks like shit.

jun asked me to be optimistic. but its easier said than done.

ANNOUNCEMENT :

RE-ADD MY MSN AT FLAUTIST.gen2@hotmail.com

its really easier said then done.

please dun be emo now

just woke up. damn sian. today got chingay full dress rehearsal . i'm putting on make-up on my face. means , i will have a hard time getting them off tonight . oh no. i talked to jun yesterday. he seems sick. GET WELL SOON ! then today his schedule also very busy. worse than me. since soka is the finale item for chingay , we will end at about 11plus . which is so damn late lurhhs. i want to come home. I MUST EAT MY LUNCH ALSO. cuz they only provide dinner. zzzz. we reach there at 1pm and they provide us only dinner. so stingy. lols. cannot wait for chinese new year ! 1st day and 2nd day is get more and more hong bao. 3rd day is FLUTE SECTION NEW YEAR OUTING. we going to senoirs house la. anyway , andy got top for o levels in haising ! yay ! somemore from flute section one lehs. flute people are clever ok =p although they are kind of. stupid at blurr at times . LIKE ME. hahas.
i need to go off le. BYEBYES !

to jermain : Lets get to the point. the reason why i went up is because , i know the sec 2's cannot cope . when i went up , they were all asking me for help. and thens. i'm sorry i did not ask you lor. SINCE u got the highest post in the section. and then , wednesday sectionals u ask us what we wanna get for syf. then me and hilary intially said silver. thats what i heard. and later she said gold. i know u are working ur ass off. but gold with honours. did i give u advice that the higher expections the more dissapointment ? i mean , if u all get gold with honours this year , means i'm either not playing or what laa. since u say the solo is stupid. THEN DUN PLAY LAA. kao peh kao bu for what ?! in the end still say the solo stupid. the solo got wrong meh ! is u want play thats why u play ma. and then say the solo stupid ?! if jun play the solo then see your face so black. LIKE bao qing tian liddat , u think will help the section ? that is why we let u play right ? next , that time u went to collect ur flute. we play the Bb . Bb C Bb. Bb C D C Bb . then , i think it must be hilary or amanda that told u that ? or was it u heard it yourself ? i played from the High Bb is cuz i want to hear the nice nice chords ? cannot hur ? SORRY LAA. i not SL whats. cannot control the section. ONLY THE SL can . THE HIGHEST POST IN THE SECTION. i just wanted to hear the nice nice sound . then kana scolded. what the fuck. fine laa. next time i shall be a good boy and play whatever the section play. =D
u say whenever i go off u never hear i play my grade 5 song ? then u must be deaf. i played kinda loud. even some sections heard. LIKE HELLO ! are u deaf ? if u are , then i advise u to go to the EAR DOCTOR and check if u have alot of ear wax. ok , and u said i slack. fine larh. i slack laa. and if i am the conductors child and u scold me and i get angry . it must be cuz u misunderstood me. u know why i have not been doing sectionals ? u know why ?! U DID NOT EVEN ASK ! damn it laa. IF U WANNA KNOW , i think jun is the only one that understands me cuz i told him everything. AND , U DUN EVEN WANNA ASK ?! and then jump to conclusions. wow. so amazing eh. and make everyone unhappy ? FINE LAA. i know hilary and u very buay song me right. THEN I RATHER JOIN THE SEC 2's. seriously. i dun want to see ur bao qing tian face.

thank you dear for the doggy. it always makes me happy !

GOT SO MANY THINGS TO SAY. lets one by one ok ?! haha. ok
1st thing is that there is someone in the flute section not trying his/her best at all. if you are in the band , and never try your best , then u are wasting your time. you are disgracing the flute section with ur sucky attitude. i duno whether u find it fun with ankle socks. skirt above your knees by alot. and not respecting senoirs. i think all this is shit. if u not even trying ur best in band i rather u leave. i dun care if we got not enough people. we just want people that are interested in music and band. not because you are oblige to. u can dun come and pon one. then kana kick out. that will be so much better for the section. please watch your attitude . cuz it sucks. ok. erms. taufiq just got kicked out of band. OFFICIALLY. hais. Regina and Veronica cried. i dun know why. but he leave then leave laa. i think its so much better lorh. ask him go play his football laa. you think the band need you ?! u think u the only one can play zodiac the snare drum arh. i really wanna get gold for syf and show him that even without him we still can do it ! so jiayou HSCCB ! really cannot stand people with shitty attitude coming to band. i rather they quit laa. make so many peoples life better. i'd cut off my ears hearing you play. and today was kind of like. ok laa. ITS better than yesterday though ! but jun pung seh me during lunch ! i was alone eating lunch laa. kns. lols. then go KFC eat alone then went to cheers to buy 8 days. but nevermind laa. he's BUSY. ok. tml is mus art concert ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. lols. i'm crazy !
ok. i'm going ! bye !