today was a seriously tiring day. after the talk in band room i went to find my parents at the air-con food court. then cried and cried and cried pouring out every single thing i was quite affected by band. i REALLY cried. i was so angry , unhappy , sad. i think i bottled all this things for so many MONTHS already. if my flute playing is affected by all this things i think i need a break from band. sometimes , i get so agitated that i almost kill myself cuz of that.
XINHUI ! HAVE A NICE AND SAFE TRIP! BONVOYAGE !!